TRASHED.

18 years old

Houston, Texas.

Female

About

I am Rachel, a.k.a. TRASHED.
I am shunned from the small society in which I live for my differences.
With this said, I go on to ask you please,
Do not criticize me, for your own deranged world has shaped me.
I've been brought up in a community full of hatred and greed.
I've lived in homes filled with corruption.
Over time, I have become just another source.

The Earth is blind; it sees only my outer-core, most of which is fake.
I live alone- parallel to the world.
I have no home, for my words are poison and to this,
They all cower in fear and cover their ears.

I bring only the truth of the world.
I am living proof that it has been created to break you down,
No one is left standing in the end.
I spill out what everyone is hiding from.

I don't smile. I don't laugh.
When I share these expressions you can be sure that it is only to comfort you.
That is not to say I do not experience feelings of excitement or appreciation,
It just doesn't flow from my lips as naturally as most.

I have always been a fighter,
Still it seems to me that I have been run all over.
I share my opinions, whether you asked for it or not.
I am a strong believer in bad karma,
Though I am yet to experience the positive.

I live in a surreal world,
Everyday just another dream.
I have many stories to tell and lectures to give,
So if speaking to me, expect to hear quite a bit.
If you disagree with me, you should know that I will fight to back-up my shit.
To persuade me is to work a miracle.

I'm never fully content with myself,
I'm changing constantly and quicky.
If you view my photos, you will see this.
All I really have to say about this is that if you aren't happy with me currently,
Just sit back and wait until next month.

Life is too much for me to handle.
I'm slipping away again.
I hate being pressured, but I'm not one to attempt at changing your intentions.
I simply will say no.
I'm attempting to cease my drug use,
But I slip up ever now and then.
I'm trying to get it together, though.
I can't be sent away this time,
I have no where left to go.
I am a STRONG believer in marijuana becoming legal.

I don't like the thought tearing down animals' homes for petty, unnecessary items.
I'll never be a vegan. Milking cows and stealing chickens' babies isn't so terrible.

Music is a key item in my everyday life.
Music affects my mood and my response to events.
Even though I have a list of bands on my page,
I thought I would touch on the subject here.
I enjoy techno, electronica, and happy hardcore music when happiness is appealing.
Normal: death metal, black metal, speed metal, and thrash metal. FUCK NU-METAL.
And of course, depression.
Slow songs, love songs, and songs important to my past.
Lyrics are of uttermost importance in my eyes.
As is a nice, clean beat.

On the television I lack educational structure.
I watch cartoons and horror movies,
Though I could endure most everything else.

I bare low self-esteem.
Thought, at times I have been informed that it is a bit too high.
I dislike walking with my head down,
And I'll judge you like no other.
That's not to say I am not accepting though.
Get to know me if you think you're worth my time.