VIRB

Ever have those days where you try so hard to feel but can't? Ever have days where you attempt, at your best, to try not to feel? Well ladies and gentlemen welcome to Megan's life hell for that matter welcome to everyone's life. We all strive to be so different but yet we still have those common inner battles that make us all strangely connected.

So lately things have been really great for me! Woot go me! My job has calmed down, my home life is great, I have met the most wonderful person in the world and spend as much time with them as I can ( I say that like we met two weeks ago when in reality we have been together for more than 3 years...lol) and my friends have slowly weeded themselves out leaving only my true best friends standing. Relationships have grown and others fizzled out.

Its funny how it all pans out when you step back and look at it from an outside view...well as outside your own mind as you can get. I mean it has been a great but sometimes turbulent couple of years and I have met so many awesome people and a few not so awesome. What I just don't get is the thought pattern behind some people. The thing that makes them tick a certain way when life becomes uncertain; when they loose control; when all is gone that was once around them. I don't understand why people can't accept the appropriate blame and call people on their crap when they are wrongly accused. Why is it whenever we are confronted by a person that we immediately go into defense mode and act like we are in high school again? Why is it all of a sudden people can't have a conversation with someone about what is bothering them about their relationship (friendship, siblings, parent/child, intimate relationship etc) but immediate rally the troops and prepare for bloodshed.

I know my friends are probably asking WTF happened to make me ponder these thoughts. That is neither here nor there as there is no mud to be thrown from my side. I am better than that. I mean if something isn't working out, you just say it was nice to know you, I wish you the absolute best and walk away. Why spend the time and effort raging with hate and despise for the other person? Why continue to drag yourself through it over and over when you are claiming how hurt you are by the whole thing? I mean all parties involved were hurt but the reaction by one party was to wash their hands and walk away realizing it for what it was while the other party has continued almost malicious attempts to rile a reaction. I am sorry to report no reaction will come forth from childish games. We are all adults so grow up. I am not to say that the party that walked away did not feel the effect of the situation but only decided to spare themself and the others around them these things:
1) The drama... I am sorry we are all adults and have no room or time for drama
2) Further hurt in the situation by trying to talk it to death

I guess what it boils down to is I just really have a hard time understanding why when a friendship dissolves one party would go to great lengths to drag the other person through the mud and lash out with personal attacks. I don't get how you can try and ruin someone's relationship to their partner because you got your feelings hurt. What gives another human the right?

I am glad to report that me and my other half are doing beautifully, despite your efforts to drive us apart and we are happier now than ever when hanging out with friends feeling no expectations. We are happy excepting people for who they are and loving them for their differences. We are happy being open minded and loving individuals that enjoy drama free days with no guilt because we decided to stay in for the evening.

To the friends that were left standing and remain to stand beside us I am greatly appreciative for you. As friends we all understand that while we may not see each other as much as we want to we are all still here for each other. This understanding of a true friendship is a beautiful thing.