niner

19 years old

Tyler, TX

Female

About

live the life you were meant to live.

i believe we were put here in this beautiful, dying world for a purpose beyond what we could ever imagine or understand. our lives are in a constant state of change, & that is the only thing you & i will ever be able to count on.
so embrace it. expect it. enjoy it.
my life has been one of conformity, capitalism, & creative boredom.
but change is coming.
i seek to find myself beyond the borders of the everyday life, & with that quest will come much chaos, much calamity, but most of all, much change. i yearn to know what life will throw at me, what experiences i will learn from, as well as those i will not. i want to find out what exactly makes me run headlong into adventure, [beyond the typical diagnosis for my ever present adrenaline junkie alter-ego]. my passion for life is something that cannot be wasted on the everyday. it must be challenged.. I must be challenged.
music is the one thing in life that has stayed the same.
it never fails to move the unmoved, change the unchangeable, break the unbreakable.
music is what i go to when my head is out of place.
& to truly enjoy and appreciate music, one must be open-minded and look at it for what it is.
one could say the same for life as well, no?
nobody gets out alive, so why not enjoy it for what it is?

i'm hard to hold on to, since my patience for boredom has never been extensive.
i was not made for this world, which is the only explanation for why my soul will never find a place to rest or settle down until i reach my Maker's arms.
never one for religion, i continue to follow Jesus in my own pitiful way.
i continue to seek Him out in everywhere i go, & i see Him daily in this beautiful world around me. i am guided to the most random, remote places because i know His will is the only place where my heart will feel content.

i am in the process of a constant regeneration.
as chuck palahniuk would say, "i just don't want to die without a few scars."