June, 2008. Just recently reconnected to this site. Always up for another adventure. Even if it may mean reconnecting with people i haven't seen or spoken to in 3+ decades. More info will be added here soon, but for now.....life has been quite an interesting and unexpected ride. Much has happened that i wouldn't have expected and even more hasn't happened that i had hoped would. But, strangely enough, i'm not unhappy about where i'm at today. Not to say i've lived life with no regrets. There are plenty of do-overs and better choices that might have made my life more satisfying. Living moment by moment. Doing my best to stay present. Soaking it in. Breathing. Being authentic. Ego ran the show for the first half of life.....what everyone else thought and how i looked was most important. Now.....soul and spirit get to have their turn at the wheel. Methinks they are doing a much better job at giving me what i really want and need out of life. Not that Ego isn't still around. It's hard to sit in the backseat when you've been white-knuckling it in the driver's seat since you can remember. But that's his proper place in all this now. I'm going solo, unless you want to count this incredibly miraculous relationship i've got going with My Lover. Yep. That's what i'm calling My Higher Power these days, because He is. And that's primarily because He has this amazing ability to take someone who's been a major screw-up for most of his life (and especially more recently) and still help me make sense of it all. He's not a new crutch. God knows we have enough of those in this life. This is something different. Real. Tangible. Not religious and dead. What i ache for? (Which is what i really care to find out about in anyone's life these days....) Is giving and taking in, in as real and transparent a way as is humanly possible. Which is awesome, because it allows me to still screw up and yet 'fess up at the same time. We've all been through it......

posted Jun 5

Now, on with the task of bringing this space alive.......need to slow down life enough to make things like this happen. This weekend should open up a window of time or two to accomplish that very thing. Authenticity........couldn't matter more right now. Couldn't matter more. de

posted Mar 13